me idiot

I do hope this feeling will fade away cause I realize he will never coming back to me. He is not belong to me. It will never happen anymore.

I'm crying while I write this. Why I so fragile like this? has anyone done something silly like this? or am I the only one? Why I so weak? Why?

He said to me that one day he will find me back. But he can't promise. That's mean I will be alone the rest of my life. Cause I never think of walk away. I still in this position, hoping he will come after me. But at the same time, I know he never will.

Today he never texting me anymore cause he busy packing things back to his village for Gawai. I do hope he will text me, but none. I see he posts on Facebook, looks so happy. But me? An idiot who's hoping he will come back.

Why am I so idiot?? I'm wasting three years for a man who not responsible on anything.

Why am I so idiot falling in love to a guy like him.

IOPE

Hai.

Tidak pernah ada orang puji saya cantik. Hahahaha sebab memang tidak cantik pun.

Tapi hari ini ada orang puji saya makin berseri-seri.

Pakai ni kayyyy

Brand dari Korea yang sedang meletop.

Saya pilih Natural punya.

Friends, I love you

I have two great friends during study at university.

The great great from the others cause they are my best friend, bff and whatever you can called it.

They give me advice and support to overcome and let go my problems.

Thanks to them.

I love both of you to the moon and back. Just the only you two I can share my problems because I have no others.

You've told me that always always always remember that it's okay to be alone.

Yes. Its okay to be alone.

frust

Hi.

I've been crying all day long today.

I lost. She win.

I'm angry, but don't know for whom. God? Him? Myself? or her?

Love, if you read this I love you. You're the best thing happen in my life. Never thought that after three years we will separate to our own path. You know that I've planned so many things with you in my mind. Build our own house, have family. I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you.

From now on I will on my own while you will have a family. And its not with me. I will focus more on my career, my exam, my life. I will try to live as happy as I could. I will do what makes me happy. I will try to move on.

I will try.

God, sorry I'm disobey you. Sometime I keep questioning you why you have to do this to me. Why I have to go through this. I'm disgraceful. I'm a sinner.

Right way

We are still talking like we used to do. We are still giggling on things like we used to do. We are still contact like we used to do. We are still helping each other like before.

This love is more stronger than before.

Yes it is.

But someone need to responsible on things they have done.

Its the right manner.

Its the right way.